Thursday, June 24, 2010

can i do it?

I'm not sure if i can.

But i'll never know if i don't try.

I'm not about to back down now. 

Fear does not control me. 

I will move foward. 

I will suceed.

Because i already have the victory. 

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Fitting In.

"If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but i have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you." -John 15:19

Why is this so hard for me to grasp?

I am of God and lives as God wants me to (to the best of my ability) yet i expect to fit in with my friends...?

I am officially stupid. 

I need to stop being so frustrated when my friends don't like me because i choose not gossip, date, or do other wordly things that i know i am not called to do. 

News Flash: they won't like me. At least not all the time. I need to stop thinking that God won't open other doors for me (cause we all know that He knows that we need relahsonships). He will. He will provide for all of my needs and won't miss a thing because He is perfect and does NOT forget His children. 

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Stand.

I'm in a battle. And though we are always in a spiritual battle i'm in the climax of it.

Will i win? or fall back?

I've been falling back and wondering why.

Maybe because i'm trying to charge into battle without a sword or amour.

How stupid! I'm done lying on my back, believing the devil's lies and just waiting to be killed.

I will stand. I will fight. I will win.

I will have the victory because i have the ultimate Overcomer living inside of me.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

decisions.

I've made a decision.

It's over.

No more.

I'm taking my self respect back.

I'm starting from the beginning.

People who are reading this and know what i am talking about...i'm sorry. You guys are wonderful, awsome people and keep growing in the Lord. I love you.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

My birthday.

The title of this blog post is a lie.

It actually has nothing to do with what i am about to say....

.....OK maybe it does. lol.

Jesus' grace is sufficient. I am not perfect. and He keep showing me over and over that i don't have to be for Him to speak through me.

And whether i think it or not He IS doing a good work in me. (here's where my birthday comes in...)

This is a new year. 15 is gonna be different then 14. I'm not going to make those same stupid mistakes. the old Jesssica is gone and the new Jessica is here.

Amen. :)

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Slave to sin.

"We know that the law is spiritual; but i am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what i do. For what i want to do i do not do, but what i hate i do. And if i do what i do not want to do, i agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer i myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For i have the desire to do what is good, but i cannot carry it out. For what i do is not the good i want to do; no, the evil i do not want to do-this i keep on doing. Not if i do what i do not want to do, it is no longer i who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

"So i find this law at work: when i want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being i delight in God's law; but i see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What i wretched woman i am! who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God-through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, i myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.

"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in sinful man, in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.

"Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.

"The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; the sinful mind is hostile to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God.

"You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ. But if Christ is in you, your body is dead because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness. And if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give you life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit, who lives in you.

"Therefore, brothers, we have an obligation-but it is not to the sinful nature, to live according to it. For if you live according to the sinful nature, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live, because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by Him we cry, "Abba, Father." The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs-heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in His sufferings in order that we may also share in His glory"

I feel like there should be an amen after all of that. Let's say, i've been struggling with sin. Repetitve, addictive, annoying sin. I can't seem to escape it. By addictive, i mean that it's something i hate and love doing at the same time. Annoying right? Part of me hates that what i am doing is pushing God farther and farther away from me and the other half of me is dying to stop. I don't even know how i stumbled across this verse but i did. I'm not sure how i am going to live by it, but it gives me hope. And, let me tell you, by hell or high water i AM going to defeat this sin! No more of those stupid lies from satan telling me that i've screwed up too many times or that God isn't big enough to knock this thing out. He can and He will!

Amen.