why do i care so much?
after all this time he still makes my heart skip a beat
he still takes my breath away
should i give it up?
it's never going to happen
it's never going to work out
but i can't
i can't let go
i've tried and it hurts too much
so i hold on....
grasping for some sort of hope...
....that i can never find
wondering if i am stupid for any of this...
and wondering why i fell so hard for this guy
and wondering if i will ever be able to stop....
