Rampage.

So for the past half hour I have run around my room and house cleaning. I have no reason or idea as to why i did this. But it felt good. For no good reason i was pissed, and i didn't act like i was ok. I slammed a couple doors and ignored my brothers more than once. It felt good. Not to sin, but to just be mad. and be ok with being mad. I didn't try to make myself happy i just let myself be unhappy for a while. I'm still not happy but i'm ok. I feel better. Like i let go for a while. I didn't worry about what i was going to do later. I didn't worry about what everyone thought of me. I didn't worry about anything. I just ran around my room and cleaned it top to bottom. I found the four phones in our house and put them on their proper bases. I threw something in the recycling. I took out the garbage. I let my body just focus my anger and pissed-off-ness and just emotion into something productive and it felt good. It felt good to let it go. Not to shove it inside waiting for someone to come along and set me off. It felt really good. and I think i'm gonna do it more often.